you called just now and said that you'll be going to thailand for 19 days 2 months later. and thats august period. thats like my birthday. thats so fucked up :( i know its army and you do not have a choice at all. but still.. 19 days is almost a month! 7 days is already a torture to me and let alone 19 freaking days. i know this sounds stupid but seeing my friends meeting their boyfriends almost everyday makes me real jealous. it'll be so nice if i could meet you whenever i want to.
and also.. you told me that you may be going to cambodia with xh before that. i know you've invited me. but i dont know if i really wanna skip school for it. i dont wanna come back from the trip and not knowing whats happening in class when i return. and i was quite irritated that you're going to malaysia with xh and william this weekend. i know yet again that you've invited me. but i somewhat co-planned a meeting with my friends this sunday and skipping it will make me feel like an asshole.
its so tiring missing you everyday.

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